Almost everything can be described in this one word. Emotional, work responsibilities, where I work itself is going through a rollercoaster, RayRay and going through his 5th yr, starting Kindergarten, and of course, watching my parents struggle through the craziness that has been their life this year again. I refuse to say "is" their life as I have strong faith that every step brings them back from the brink of the crazy and closer to a more stable and joyful life. So, what am I grateful for? That I'm strong enough to survive the emotional storms that seem to always be there as a fact of life. That I have a job no matter how "rollercoaster" it might be some days (and though it might be, my work family is amazing). That my little boy is growing into such a neat, lovable, Gd loving child that has more love in his heart for family & friends than all of us combined. That he LOVES kindergarten and learns so much every week we are always amazed. That most of all, my family is intact-mom & dad both here with us, dad getting stronger, NaNa still active and doing her thing! I'm blessed.
and yet, still so many that I want to do for. Why are there children that are hungry or homeless? Why are there children that are hurt or unloved? Those of you that read my yearly Thanksgiving musings know that I say this every year. I'm sad. I hurt for those that face hunger, abuse, cold, lost. every day. What am I doing to help...I feel like nothing, at best, not enough. So my goal for this year is to change. To try and do more. Hopefully, you'll all want to join in. This year I'm going to try hard to pay it forward and make a difference in a life. I guess if you include me, I'll be making a difference in 2 lives ;) Love to all my friends & family and know that even if I dont see you as often as I would like, you all have touched my life in some way and made my it wonderful. <3
